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I usually just wash mine with warm water and soap too, and rinse the inside hole part out too. I guess sometimes mine appear cloudy too, but I think they are alright. 🙂

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Kelseroo, you said it exactly right when you said you feel “numb”. That is exactly the word for how I feel sexually. Just numb. I try to be into it, but I’m just not. It’s so hard. And I think it has been hard for me too because I literally do have to dilate for hours in order to insert my husband, other wise it is way too painful. :-/ Just gotta keep pressing on! Thanks so much for the tips, Dr. Pacik and Dr. Rynne!

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Jessbee, I had the EXACT same experience. I thought something was really wrong, apparently I am just SUPER sensitive while on my cycle, I just never realized since I had never had anything inserted in my vagina during that time of the month before. I discovered that this is my normal, and the week and a half surrounding my period (couple days before, during and couple days after) is really hard and painful for me to dilate or have anything in my vagina, but then after that I can go right back to dilating easily and mostly pain-free. I’m hoping that is all this is for you. If it still seems to be bothering you after your cycle, then I would suggest maybe getting checked for a UTI, as I had one of those a couple months ago and it made it very painful to use my dilators or try to insert my husband as well. But, seriously, sounds exactly like my experience, so I think you will be alright! As Dr. P told me when I went through this, don’t be afraid to quit dilating for a few days (or even a week) if you need to, your body will adjust back to the dilators when your cycle is over. 🙂 Hope this helps!

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Thanks for the response, Allie! I have been thinking that I should go purchase some new lingerie, just to see if it would help me. 😉 It’s just frustrating because most of the time when I am “in the mood” I have not been dilating, so I know it won’t be successful to attempt intercourse. I have to have been dilating for a few hours and be up to the 5 to be able to tolerate my husband penetrating me. Anyways, I appreciate the tips, and I will just have to continue to try! 😉

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Thanks, Allie! 3 months, that is so good to know! I have been feeling like I had to rush and start doing it once my six week check goes okay and the idea of that stresses me out, I know I will be so exhausted. I’m glad to know everything still went fine just working your way back up! Thanks so much for the advice and reassurance! I definitely can’t wait to have this sweet baby, it’s been a long time coming! 🙂 🙂

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Hi Katie,

I wish that I had advice to give you in this regard, but I am struggling in the same way! I feel like my libido was very high when we first got married, but after a while of dealing with V it really does suck it all away from you. 🙁 I have a hard time not considering our sex life to be “work” because it really IS work right now (had my procedure in February). My friends have suggested I need to find what makes me aroused and have my husband focus on that, but truthfully not much arouses me anymore. It is hard to find a balance between the chore of dilating and learning to have sex and wanting that spontaneous, fun, passionate sex life that you always imagine you will have. Anyways, mostly just want to let you know you’re not alone in this struggle, I feel exactly the way you described. Hopefully some others will have some great suggestions for us. 🙂

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So happy for you, K Howard! 🙂 I am due with our first little one the middle of January. It truly is such a blessing to have this gift of life when for so many years you don’t think that it will ever be possible. 🙂 I love your statement “God and his earthly angels”, that is exactly how I feel! SO happy for you and your husband, congratulations on this sweet boy of yours! 🙂 🙂

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Yeah, I agree with Dr. Pacik on both counts. I would definitely get checked for a urinary tract infection, I never had any problems with these until after my procedure and more things were going in and out of my body. 🙂 It’s super fast and easy to get checked for and a quick round of antibiotics clears it up. 🙂 At least to get that ruled out would be a good thing.

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That makes me cry, just reading it. What a supportive boyfriend you have, Lauxo! So happy for you both! 🙂 And I can definitely relate to the sobbing post procedure, I was the same way! 🙂 It’s so exciting when you have hope for the first time in years! 🙂

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Thanks so much for sharing this story, Dr. Pacik! I remember feeling so frustrated and defeated that first night and second day also. I wasn’t able to sleep in my #4 either and went back to the clinic wearing no dialtor. It is easy to convince yourself you will fail, after dealing with V for so long! So thankful you had the courage to keep pressing on, Mayra! I am so, so happy for you!!

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Congratulations, Alice! 🙂 So happy for you and your husband! 🙂 I had my procedure in February of this year, and the first few times we tried intercourse I was not able to tolerate any thrusting either. I still struggle with low-libido, which is so sad because I definitely did not have that struggle when we were first married. That is one of the very unfortunate and frustrating side effects of Vaginismus. I have a hard time being aroused and I especially find it hard when it all the dilating and trying to insert his penis just feels like work to me and its not spontaneous or enjoyable in the way I want it to be. But, all of this will come in time, I’m sure! Just know you aren’t alone in those struggles! 😉 Congratulations again, and I hope you continue to have successful (and more enjoyable!) sex with your husband! 🙂

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I love this post! Thank you, Allie! I had my procedure in February and got pregnant the first time we had successful intercourse. Since then we have not been able to have intercourse again (though I still use my dilators) because I have just had a rough go of things with this pregnancy. I would love to hear more about your dilating and all of that post-baby because I, too, am terrified of this! My sweet little one is due in January, a little less than 11 months post-procedure. 🙂

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Hi Meghan,

I experienced some of this too! I completely agree with Heather, your body is probably exhausted! I know my leg/pelvic muscles felt so fatigued during and after my time in NH because there was just SO much going on in an area that was not used to it! Hopefully it will pass soon! 🙂 And congrats on having your procedure done, so exciting!! 🙂

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Hi Katie,

The glass dilators I got from Dr. Pacik’s office came in bubble wrap envelopes, so I just put those into my carry on and didn’t have any troubles. 🙂 The bag you have sounds like it will be perfect, too! 🙂

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So happy for you, JessBee! 🙂 My husband and I both really loved that he got to be in the room and aid with the dilation during the procedure too. I think it is really eye-opening for our partners to witness all of this first hand and get to be a part of it. So glad you had your procedure done!! 🙂 🙂

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