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Heather get better soon 🙂

[kaylee]

Hi ladies,

I want to share a little more about my first penetration experience. I was really nervous to try and couldn’t help thinking I was going to fail but I knew that night would come. I prepared with the purple, pink, and then blue and since I was told that I should try keeping it in till my partner was ready to put himself in I left it in while we attempted foreplay. I say attempted foreplay because I was so nervous all I could think of was “the pain” I was going to feel….lol anyways when we decided to try we started in the missionary position and we went slow, removed blue glass dilator and he slowly put himself in. It worked but i started feeling trapped and my anxiety made me panic. We then tried standing up, and doggy style which worked fine but I couldn’t fight the feeling of not being in control and I freaked out. I decided that full penetration was successful and i had enough for one day. Overall a very positive inch in my journey considering this was day 15 post procedures! Ladies don’t lose faith, everyday is different but if there’s something i learned is that after a few days of the same activity the anxiety lessens and then dissapears. I’m sure that this too will get better with practice. Just last night on day 19, we tried again and made love for the first time. We decided on missionary and prepared the same purple, pink, blue glass dilators. I added the blue silicone for 20 minutes because of the length. I read that in the forum from a past patient and let me tell you It did it. He was able to penetrate and thrust slowly until he reached climax. It was so special for us, it was the first time we had been intimate this way. For all those of you who are reading this, please trust in my words, read all my past post and see the different stages I’ve gone through and where I’m at now. I’m so thankful I made that trip and forever will be!

[kaylee]

Hi Heather,

I’m twelve days post procedure today and i have got to tell you that i feel like the anxiety that came with dilating is almost completely gone! For me the anxiety came as a result of the thought of having something in me, I mean it literally freaked me out. My first thought post procedure when I lay in the recovery room of Dr. Pacik’s office was how it didn’t hurt. Then when i picked up the sheets to move the blue dilator in and out of me I learned that it also did not hurt at all, but I got to admit that seeing the dilator coming out of my body made me light headed. As the days went by I noticed that anxiety was there right about the time my partner would start to help me dilate bcuz i expected pain but when i felt none it started getting easier and easier. Then came the anxiety that came with dilating by myself without the help of insertion of my partner. The first time I tried the purple I got it in within seconds but i gotta say the thought of inserting something on my own almost made me faint. Overall a sucess but i thought for sure I could never do the pink or blue. To my surprise the next day both went in within seconds and today, day 12 I feel such a huge weight off my shoulder. I actually don’t dread coming home and dilating because I’ve conquered my fears and with it anxiety, next step….intercourse!

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Hi Milikait12,

Yes, I very much understand what you ean when anything that happens on a daily basis reminds you of the BIG problem vaginismus is. When I was doing research for the procedure I thought id give physical therapy a go before I resorted to Botox treatment which is located on the other side of the United States for me. I googled a few places and called about ten different facilities, left voicemail, and got nothing but “Vag what”. I was so frustrated because they would advertise the treatment but would give me answers like those, then I would answer back and say ” never mind your clearly not the person to help me”. I, like you know just recently had the procedure and I feel like im on my way to be healed from this problem. I know it seems almost impossible to go through with the travel, procedure, and everything as a whole but im glad I called, scheduled it, and got on that plane. There were many times that I would think, “what am I doing”, and “am I really going through with this”. I finally gathered the courage, figured out how to pay for it, and told myself the only thing stopping me from being happy is money. I then told myself, “Absolutely not, im going to figure it out but im going”. I was really tired of crying, daily, just living a lie because everyone thought I was happy but truly I felt so incomplete. You definitely can do this too. I choose not to let a year pass by without me making a move towards a solution. If you would like to text, email, or call me please send Janet Pacik an email and we can talk more about the actual procedure. I know its scary, the whole thing, but I can certainly help with any questions. Like I said today I am six days post procedure and already see a huge improvement. I know its only a matter of time so I too can be successful.

[kaylee]

Thank you ladies for your good wishes. They meant a lot as I went in for my procedure. I wrote an update on the post procedure link.

[kaylee]

Thank you for the good wishes Heather 🙂 I truly do trust in god and know that if he put me through this it’s for a reason and I too will be sucessful. I am placing myself in the hands of Dr. Pacik and his staff and I trust that i will be well taken care of.

[kaylee]

Hi ladies,

Thank you guys so much for your advice and responses. I truly will consider and use all of ur recommendations as I prepare for my trip. Lotus congratulations on ur recent successes, I’m very excited and truly happy for you! Ladies, please keep me in your prayers as i begin my new future. Only 14 more days!

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Hi firenze 🙂

I’m so happy for you!!! When i read this last noght I had the biggest grin in my face and I even woke up my fiancee to read him ur post. You give me lots of more hope for my procedure, thank you so much. Please do keep updating us with the next days as it helps my fiancee see what we will go through in a few weeks 🙂

[kaylee]

Hi Ferenzie,

I’m sorry your having such bad day with ur dilation. I wish I could help you but im still pre procedure. Im sure the other girls are going to give you great advice and tips. I read your day 3 update post and your already doing great. Hang in there I know ur going to get over this hump just like all the other women have. I’ve scheduled my procedure for March so I hope to be getting your advice by then and all the different things that helped you :). Thank you for posting, it helps me so,so much and gives me hope :). Cant wait to see your next update and im sure will be a positive one.

[kaylee]

Hi Nakitalab and Allie,

Thank you so much for your replies, I feel the support and now that you guys will be here for me through my journey. It makes me feel less alone with this and its nice to talk to a girl for a change about it. @ Allie, I would love to talk,email,text about the many questions that I have especially after I schedule a date. Im so happy that you shared your story with me, its amazing that you have come such a long way just 80 days post procedure, it really does give me hope. I hope all your stress is gone because you deserve nothing but good things going forward :). @Nakitalab, I also want to say thank you for sharing your story with me and what gave me a smile was knowing that you meet Allie that day and not only did you make a best friend out of it but you both suceeded together. It made me want to move faster with my procedure :). Wow 32 years, your so brave I cant imagine a better example of a real women who deserved to be happy. Your truly amazing!

[kaylee]

Hi Ferenzie13,

I’m also new to the forum and in fact I have yet not introduced myself. I’m considering the treatment myself right now and I feel scared to think about but it scares me more to go another month with this problem. I discovered I had vag about six months ago but like you I think I’ve had it for a few years on some level. I just want to commend you for being so brave and getting help. I wish you the best of luck and I have faith that like all the women before you will also succeed :).Please share all details with me throughout your whole experience as i’m sure it will help me tremendously. I hope to be as brave like you in a few weeks and get the help I need.

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