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Hello I have to as well, well for one reason my mental therapist has been sick the last three months. So I been trying to push myself, sept. 18 will be a year, still no intercourse yet, not giving up but determined, I finally got back up to 6 it was tight and some burning, but I plan to work my way through.

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Sure I would love for you to email me or talk on the phone.

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This is a journey!!!!!!! I agree!! Mentally I am not where I wanna be!!!

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I too feel the exact same way. It will be a year September 18. I have not had intercourse yet. Still working at it. More tougher than I thought it would be. I have become very depressed!!!!!!!!

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Update!!! I am thrilled to see that everyone had made progress!!!!! But I wish I had better news to share like everyone else I don’t. Nothing had changed everything is still the same.

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Congrats!

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Thank you so much I haven’t been on the forum much buy I am in this therapy called emotional freedom therapy. Thank for being positive. I am happy for all if of you I am just the one odd ball.

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Congrats to you both

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I am happy for you two.

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Thank you thank you I am crying as I am reading this. You are so encouraging and thoughtful. Thank thank you. Oh how I wished we stayed closer.

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Thank you Sarah and heather. Your thoughts and words are very encouraging to me. So I dilated last night it went in fine. This really is a journey a journey that is hard and we have to keep going uphill and not backslide. I don’t wanna do that. I hope one day Sarah you can have the procedure as well. Hopefully the rocky road will soon be smooth where one day we. All will say I accomplished my goal and feel so proud of ourselves………..Sarah keep moving forward. I think you are doing great without the Botox that’s amazing……………I just wished all this anexiety could go away!,,,,,,,,

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That’s great!!!!!!

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I guess in mind I thought it would be easier than I thought.

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You just continue to hang in there. My husband gets frustrated at times to. Thanks for your encouragement!!!!!!!!!

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Thanks Sarah. My husband has been supportive……..still is. We have been dealing with this almost 14 years. My anexiety is over the top. I went to my primary care doctor they gave me valium on a as needed basis 10mg, and well butrin 300 mg. but I will only take the valium when I really need it those moments when I can’t control my emotions……..I will be seeing someone for anexity as well. This has been a long road, I don’t sleep at night well, I dilate regularly still. But I have days when I am at my lowest, this may not make sense……but one day a nurse I work with came in and said she was pregnant, I was happy for her, at this time I don’t wont any children but I knew what it took for her to get pregnant…….so I had to step out and gain my composure. Something so natural and I am struggling horribly. A lot of my friends have families and they all seem happy…they talk about their sex lives and I just ease out the room. I think about this all day, I have bad headaches and hardly no appetite at times. I pray every night before I dilate I also pray for courage and strength to keep going, and moving forward. Sometimes I just lay in bed at night thinking my heart is pounding and I look at my husband because my heart just breaks for him. He has been through so much and I love him dearly, I just hate 14 years have passed by so fast. This issue I feel controls every part of my life, I feel I don’t have a good relationship with my inlaws because of this and my i securities, just because I wasn’t honest with them are my husband in the beginning I guess that weighs on me a lot to. I love my inlaws just hate I kinda messed things up. So I admit I have a problem….a serious one……I admit I need help……..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. So that’s why I am going to a therapist. I just wanna be normal and carefree for one day. I have carried this around for 14 years seems longer I am tired mentally and emotionally, but no matter what I dilate I don’t wont vaginismus coming back, I cry for about 30 min then I dilate. I appreciate the staff. At the clinic they are so encouraging and understanding no matter how many times I call they are willingly to listen they are patient because sometimes I asked the questions over and over just to reassure myself. Didn’t think I would be going on 6 months and no intercourse yet. It is kinda hard to explain I love my husband I wanna have sex with him, just need get this anexiety under control. I am finding it harder and harder to keep my composure in public I just start crying and I have to leave wherever I am at.

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