[heather123]

Thanks ladies.
Your support and kind words mean a lot in these tough times.
Always hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when the tunnel seems to go on and on in distance.
But like the song from Disney’s Hercules, “I Can Go the Distance” 🙂

~Heather123~

[heather123]

Well look at you go Katie girl!!!! 🙂 ohhhhhhhh my gosh! What great news 🙂
…….I can’t wait to live this moment someday and hopefully in the near future!
Congrats congrats congrats to you and Chris! I bet he’s a very happy man 😉

~Heather~

[heather123]

Thanks, Katie! 🙂
I’m glad we get to keep in touch and keep eachother posted with status’s of our journeys. I got the #2 dilator in at 10 minutes again today.
Was still suuuper sore from NH, but still happy with how things are starting out. 🙂
*hugs***
~Heather~

[heather123]

We just got back home in Oregon. Got to tell you, I feel like I woke up from a long dream.
I can’t believe where we just were, what we just went through, and the continued path ahead that leaves evidence that this is the new reality.

On Day#2 for me, at Dr. Pacik’s office, it was just as much a challenge at the first day.
The other two ladies were able to put in their assigned sized dilators faster than me. And there I was in tears and putting pressure on myself to go faster and be better, but how could I? I had to remember where I was and why I was there for. Dr. Pacik gently reminded us all that this was NOT a race.
All three of us girls in that room came from different stories that led up to being in that room. It would not matter who can put in the largest or who can dilate the fastest, it mattered that we mentally chose to try and put a dilator in at all….to TRY. That’s what made me feel like a champ.
Two years ago, a #2 would take 3 hours to put in.
On day #2 at Dr. Pacik’s office, it took me 10 minutes. Wow….just WOW!
Size and speed don’t matter. You are a champion through the blood and tears of each attempt to succeed and bring yourself one step closer to the bliss of painless sex.

I’m sitting on my bed at home now with my cat sleeping soundly next to me…I’ve got to admit…I. Feel. Different.
As sore and dizzy as I am from the long flight, I feel like a changed Heather.
Thank you Lord for the skilled gifts you have given Dr. Pacik and his staff.
Thank you again, Dr. Pacik.
I wish I lived in NH just so I could stop by more often then not and have a nice conversation over lunch at the picnic table.
Thank you for the memories and advice that will mold my spirit with time.
Thank you to nurse Lee, who has a gift with her beautiful eyes, when I fell into despair with fear and sorrow, she brought me back with her kindness and sincerity.
Thank you Cynthia for your warm smile and humor that helps us relax before starting our day.
Thank you, just to all Dr. Pacik’s entire staff.
I sincerely hope the vaginismus treatment will one day be heard as the loud voice to the world for women everywhere who deserve a second chance like everybody else.
Thank you for giving that chance to me.
~Heather~

[heather123]

Was a very tough day for me. BUT, that is just me. Every girl’s body is different and responds according to her personal experience with this.
I woke up with the largest dilator inside. Once the nurse told me I could go to the restroom I began to panic because I didn’t want to take it out and put it back in.
I know myself very well….it wasn’t likely to happen. But we downsized to a #3. Went back to our hotel and put on my old gymnastics leotard to keep it in.

Whenever I had to pee, I went in the shower. I did NOT want to risk the dilator popping out into the toilet bowl. haha.
Being in the shower was so much easier to keep an easy hold on the end of the dilator. Plus you feel so much cleaner and refreshed.
Helps practice using one hand.

Took a loooong nap at the hotel afterwards. Slept on my side.
Once you find that one comfortable position, stay there, and dream away.
Then wake up and watch some cartoons and tv shows to keep your heart and mind positive and ready for day #2.
Will keep you posted.
If anyone has any questions and would like to email me. Let Janet Pacik know so she can provide you with my email.
I love pen pals. 🙂
Thanks for the support and email hugs.
~Heather~

[heather123]

Thank you for sharing your procedure experience girls!!! ….we leave from Oregon this Saturday….each day closer gets me more irritated at work (probably cuz I work with all MEN in a warehouse).

I’m sooooooo scared…..my vaginal muscles are suuuuuuuper strong and I hope the dilator comes out just as easily for me too so I can feel on top of the world too! ; )

Keep us posted on how you feel when you get home and settle back into home life.

~Heather123~~~

[heather123]

I completely forgot to give a thank you for the response to my 2 questions a week ago I think, from Heather 34 🙂
And of course, thank you Dr. Pacik for your response as well. The more answers, the less tears and nerves there will be.
~heather123~

[heather123]

Hi KatieG07-

I’ll be there on the 9th. Not sure what time though….but I hope maybe to get the chance to meet another trooper 🙂
Let me know if maybe you want to exchange emails so we can write back and forth before the procedure and how things go after.
Would be nice to have a pen pal for this journey.
~Heather123~

[heather123]

Thanks Heather34 🙂

My nerves definitely creep up on me the closer June 9th gets here…
It’ll be the scariest event of my life that is suppose to help the most important thing in our marriage.
Feels like all the bricks are in my “backpack” and I’m carrying them all across the country.
These are the concerns/fears I have at the moment

1) Is it hard to go the restroom after you wake up from the procedure?
I’ve had hymenectomy before in 2012, so when I went to the restroom it felt as if you were on your period kind of pain but nothing major…

2) Can I ask Dr. Pacik no to put in the largest dilator for me to wake up with inside? My fear is getting it out because the injections won’t be kicked in or something.
We already plan on bringing Slippery Stuff gel but I’ll be asleep during the procedure and after, but won’t I be “dry” when I wake up?

3) Do we have to have the dialators inside while on the plane back home? Or only when we’re comfortable at home?

…….that’s all I can think of right now…. ;P

[heather123]

Thanks for the advice Becca 🙂

Did you say you flew “back” to NH? Or did you mean when you flew back home to Seattle?
I wasn’t sure if you had to go back for another procedure.

I figured after the procedure when the injections force the muscles to stand back/relax, the grip on the dilator inside won’t hurt as bad at all.
At lesst I would think that how it goes……

Yeah, my husband and I have been using Slipper Stuff gel for a while now so I’m glad someone else recommends it for this situation.

Did you have to have the dilator in on the plane??? haha…just figured that any girl flying more than an hour back home should be comfortable at least 🙂

~Heather

[heather123]

Hey Katie-
Where are you flying from?

I’m sooo nervous for this whooole thing….the long FLIGHT…the PROCEDURE…the FLIGHT back…haha…oh gosh I hope I don’t get sick before teh procedure ;P

[heather123]

I am a June 9th patient… while sitting in my new job orientation today, I had a free moment to space out and then I got to thinking about June plans…and the BIG plan/trip to NH for the ;procedure crossed my mind….and I tensed up and grimaced. Yes I’m excited for a solution to our 4 years no-sex issue, but man, I am terrified to pull anything OUT. I feel like the dilator will get stuck and rip me some more…I’m sure things will be just fine and smooth when I get there. Just thoughts scaring me as usual.

I think the long flight from Oregon is was makes me a tad nervous because on top of the no-sex issue, I have vertigo and slight rib cage inflammation, so just the thought of more pain is cringeful thinking… but I just gotta troop through it like anyone else here…..

[heather123]

Hey, it’s another Heather! Nice to meet you 🙂

I’m a June patient…very nervous…excited though after reading the successes of others and hoping I’ll get to join the team and not stay on the bench another four years…

My big worry and fear is the post procedure when I wake up a dilator inside me.
When I tried dilating myself before learning about Dr. Pacik’s services, the hardest most painful time I had was getting the dilator OUT. It was like a vagina indian burn….big time.
If a huge dilator is inside me at the procedure, will it be difficult to pull out? 🙁

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