Thanks for your reply.
I’m glad to see many women have managed to overcome their problem.
I ordered some dilators. Unfortunately I found them rather uncomfortable. They’re made of some sort of medical plastic and feel really hard. I was able to insert the smallest, but it was difficult to keep it inside without pain. When I use my fingers, inserting is uncomfortable but once inside it’s doable to comfortable, depending on my mood I suppose.
Today I ordered some silicone dilators, they seem to be more flexible so hopefully I will like them more. Another plus on those, the silicone set contains 2 dilators that are smaller then the smallest of the set i recently obtained.
Reading people’s experiences on the forum did give me the courage to try and insert 3 fingers. And this was doable, it felt tight, but not really painfull. I’m quite pleased that I finally found the courage to do that.