[Khatt30]

this is very helpful, Thanks!

[Khatt30]

Thank you. I hope I can get this treatment before it’s too late for my marriage. I already feel it may be too late for children.

Khatt30

[Khatt30]

Hi, I just found out about this Botox treatment of vaginismus last night!! I happen to stumble upon it through Pinterest (of all places. lol) I have primary vaginismus and only realized it about 2 years ago while in marriage counseling. ( I married at 30, I am 35 years old now) I never even heard of this condition before then. I had never even attempted tampons (ever) and I actually had several successful PAP exams since I was 18, so I was completely confused when I could not have penetration despite multiple attempts over months and then years.
In retrospect (after reading up on Vaginismus) the PAP smears became increasingly more painful over the years and when I went for my last one (right before I got married) my dr. was unable to even insert her finger! I was in so much pain and so embarrassed! My GYN dr. was (obviously) un familiar with vaginismus because she reacted frustrated with ME! She said some hurtful things like: “What are you going to do on your honeymoon?! lay there and say ‘ow! ow!’?!” She then proceeded to try to force me to insert a tampon! (I cringe to even remember the day). Needless to say I left in tears and NEVER went back.
Fastforward to 2 years later, me and my husband were in marriage counseling due to severe relationship issues (as you can imagine) and I told our counselors about our ‘issue’ AGAINST my husbands wishes (he was present) because i felt that had a lot to do with why we were there to begin with. The counselor researched it and told us about it in the very next visit.
Since then we found the 10Steps to completely overcoming Vaginismus book and dilator kit (By Mark and Lisa Carter) we purchased it and began the process….I got as far as Step6 and the second dilators, but i was going it alone….my husband was not very supportive and we never really ‘talked’ about it because he would get upset. (He couldn’t deal with it , i guess)
So, i gave up. The emotional and physical pressure of doing it alone and not being able to really talk with ANYONE about it plus the pressures of a stressful job, took it’s toll.

Our marriage deteriorated further and we eventually just ignored it. We didn’t talk about it one way or the other. We were intimate less and less frequently. (my libido is almost non-existant even now) As my 35th birthday came and went (last July) I became more depressed about not being able to have a family. We finally started talking about our ‘issue’ again and started working on our relationship.
We have re-started the book from the beginning but with my husbands 100% support this time. (In all honesty, i was un-interested and resigned to someday adopt, but he wanted to try again)
I have so much resentment and trauma and negative feelings about the whole process that it’s hard to sit through each chapter as we read it together….I dread when i have to start he endless exercises, insertions with the dilators etc…!!

That’s why I was looking it up on Pinterest…..and then i read that there was this treatment…..but then i realized that you are in New Hampshire 🙁
I live in North Texas!

I may never be able to go get the Botox treatment you offer but I though I could at least share my story and talk to SOMEONE about it!
It’s been so many years of silence and shame and frustration!
I honestly don’t know how far i will get with this book this time around…..There’s just nothing else i can do.

Thank you for everything you’re doing for women like me.
This really is the loneliest disease.

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