Hi! I’m new to this forum and really want to know everything there is to know about the Botox treatment! I have been to a therapy center where I was put through a VERY rigorous dilating schedule and in the end was able to use a large dilator with smaller amounts of pain. I have yet to have pain free sex with my husband of 5 years but I desire it more than anything in the world! I feel like since going through therapy 3 years ago, I’ve almost become more nervous with anything being close to my vagina! Just recently my husband has started saying things about how “I can do it” (have intercourse) but I know I can’t! He’s never mean about it or trying to hurt me but it does! I feel like such a HUGE failure!!! In the moment when we are doing non intercourse things, the desire is there for me to have intercourse so I know it is there for him too, which is why he says things like that! I just want to be normal, I’m SO TIRED of hearing all about how amazing other peoples sex lives are and how other women just crave sex and I can barely even tolerate the thought of it! Vaginismus is the hardest thing to go through and just reading some of these success stories and being around a group of other women that understand is just HUGE for me!!! Thank you all for being so open and honest, I love reading about how it’s no longer painful! The therapy center I went to, not a single women in the support group ever used the words “pain free”! I now understand why, it just wasn’t for me but I really want to get better! Maze….HERE I COME!!!!!!
