Hi Allie. I felt so much like this in the very beginning and it’s very common. For me personally, this got a tremendous amount better with time. For example, in the first month post-procedure, I would constantly want to be dilating and having intercourse with the hubby b/c I was still fearful that for some reason it wouldn’t go back in or it wouldn’t continue to work. However, each time that it did, I would gain a little more confidence and the knowledge and belief that it would always work. Hope this helps!