Hi ladies! I am 24 years old and I have level 5 primary Vaginismus. I just got married 5 months ago, but my husband and I have been together for 7.5 years. My story starts when I was 12 years old. I will try to make my extremely long story short.
When I first got my period, I tried using tampons and I hit a wall. I was completely unable to insert anything. About 6 years ago I was diagnosed with Vaginismus, but none of my doctors knew what to do about it. I was basically told it was all in my head. Most of us have heard all the stupid statements people make to us suffering with Vaginismus. “Oh, just relax”, “Have a glass of wine”, “It’ll happen eventually”, even “It’s not that big of a deal, just push through it”. Idiots. I started going through the long and difficult process of trying to solve this. I tried different doctors, gynecologists, therapists, many different medicines, a hymenectomy, physical therapy, self-therapy, dilators, biofeedback, and even went to a Vulvodynia specialist. Of course, none of these even came close to helping me. I have been suffering from depression and severe anxiety for about 6+ years now feeling hopeless. I eventually found Dr. Pacik’s website and decided this was something I needed to do.
I am now 3 days post procedure and am really excited that I can use the dilators! I have never been able to insert anything at all in the past. Right after my procedure I had A LOT of bleeding – way more than I was expecting and it did scare me a little bit. Apparently I’m just a person who bleeds a lot when my body has been through a procedure. I was told it’s still normal. My first night went really rough. I went home with dilator #4 in, and a couple hours later I couldn’t even get out of bed to pee. I was in so much pain that I actually passed out in my hotel room. Luckily my mom was there with me and gave me a pain pill. I had to go down to the #3 dilator for the night. The next day I was able to dilate back up to the #4 while working with Dr. Pacik. Unfortunately, now that I’m home, I am stuck at #3. I still have a LOT of pain, so I am hoping I’ll be able to progress once the pain dies down a bit.
