Re: Single and Dilating

[Heather34]

Hi Molly. Welcome to the Forum and huge, huge CONGRATS on having your procedure this past Monday! This is so, so wonderful and I absolutely love reading your post! So many parts of it stand out for me. You wrote about not letting the fear of failure stop you from having the procedure. This is so worthwhile to read and I am so proud of you for going through with it. I, too, was terrified that I would fail and was the most nervous that I would not be able to do the dilating following the procedure. I didn’t ever believe that I could do this despite what anyone told me and it took actually going through it and doing it for me to know that it was possible; it had happened; and I was able to insert something inside of me for the first time. It was such a surreal feeling and I can totally relate to what you write “I had to keep myself from over dilating due to the ease of the process, and how amazed I am that I am able to fully insert something in an area which was previously SHUT DOWN.” You are doing so amazingly well post-procedure! You further wrote “the dilation is not hard … what is hard is reflecting on lost opportunities…” Please, please know that we are all here for you. Dr. P has so often written “you have to catch up emotionally to where you are physically”. I believe this statement is a work in progress and one of which I am still continuing to work on. Post-procedure, while I was able to successfully dilate and transition to intercourse, I would sometimes reflect and have issue with the fact that I wish so much I would’ve learned of this procedure and had it several years prior to when I did. I still very much wish this but I am so happy that I did discover it and it was the cure that I had been praying for 11+ years for. Now, I try hard to advocate so other women will not only understand the condition and associated symptoms but also, that there is a cure available in the form of this treatment. I get so, so happy when I read a post where a patient and forum member discovered this treatment through magazines, on-line blogs, forums, and social media – twitter, etc. I learned of Dr. P’s treatment through a yahoo Forum about vaginismus and still thank God that I happened to read that post on that night and then made the decision to contact the office. If you or anyone reading this post has any ideas of how we can collectively spread the word about vaginismus and this treatment, I’d love to hear all of your thoughts and ideas. Again, huge, huge CONGRATS on having this procedure and I can’t wait to read more of your posts. Sending hugs!!!!