I realized the other day that I have to deal with this,The more I stop and start the longer it’s going to take to deal with this and the more of my emotional energy it will suck out of me. I keep going, but yesterday I could only emotionally handle 10 minutes so I gave it 10minutes. If I do this everyother day it seems to work for me. I keep forgetting to do the kegals but good news!! I’m on the third dialartor. I was talking to my friend the other day and realized I really had no support from my ex anyway, and who knows if the next person would give me any support anyway. I’m going to suck it up get through this and put it in the review mirror.