I agree entirely with you, Heather. Embarresment is just as big a factor as anxiety, and the reason that only my husband and best friend know about the condion (which is then coupled with the guilt and awkwardness about keeping something so important from our family, especially when planning such a big trip over from the UK!). I would be highly embaressed if someone had discovered the initial dilators I bought, or even all the lube, and I’m with Heather on the fear of having to explain such things when travelling, and even to doctors. I suppose embaressment is the cause of the ‘wall of silence’ that surrounds the condition, and I hope that when I have ‘overcome’ it it will be easier to tell others about my experiences (as then I will be ‘normal’ again!).