Hi Daffodil. Welcome to the Forum and thank you so, so very much for your post! You are absolutely correct – even writing a few words is so monumental and a huge step in overcoming. I promise you in this new year of 2016 to support you 100% in overcoming vaginismus! I wanted to share a recent post that I wrote concerning treatment options for out-of-country patients. It is super long so I won’t re-post it here but will provide you with the link to check it out: http://www.vaginismusmd.com/support/vaginismus-md-forum/?mingleforumaction=viewtopic&t=1092 Sending you huge hugs and all my support!!!