I have similar issues with tearing. I have been on the pill for 10 years and have come off 6 months ago. I also have vaginismus which I have been combating for 10 years.
I am currently in New Zealand. The renevee do you know what other active ingredients are in it? I am not sure I can get it in new Zealand but I am desperate to try something. I even have tearing with dilators and I can’t even feel it at the time. I have been with my partner five years and it’s on the brink of collapse. I am trying to do everything I can do. I have had PT, gynae and they all say the tesr is small but it hurts! And it keeps happening. I feel my muscle tension is improving and I feel I could insert the largest dilator but it will still tear. I feel the tear is stopping me progress more than the vaginismus. Please help!