Hi Aishat2605 – thanks for sharing your story! What you’re describing definitely sounds like my own experience of vaginismus. I hate that you’re suffering now, but there are definitely resources in the UK. Outside your parents’ gaze you can order a set of dilators or look into the botox treatment over in London, which many of our forum members have discussed. You can read more about that in this thread:

Please let us know if you have questions along the way or need any kind of support at all – even if you aren’t able to explore this as much as you’d like in Nigeria, this does not have to define your life and MANY people have overcome this issue! Keep the faith!